In my head I know this is unrealistic. I know there are outside factors at play sometimes making it impossible to get it all done (one, actually - her name is Eleanor). But it's still easy to listen to those asshole little voices that creep in and tell you that you should be able to pull it together. (These are the same asshole voices that creep in at the most inopportune times to make us feel inferior for some reason or another. I know we all have them, so why hasn't someone figured out how to get rid of those jerks?!)
Now most days I can squelch the voices - frankly a lot of days they don't even dare show their hideous faces (do voices have faces? I digress). And for the record, most days I do manage to keep things somewhat in order. (Not because I feel I have to, but because a picked up house makes me breathe easier.)
But on the days I don't, all it takes is looking at the amazingly breathtaking child that I get to call mine to realize that I'm doing just fine. So the laundry is sitting in the dryer, slowly wrinkling to the point of no return? I threw a kitchen dance party and made my baby giggle. So clean dishes have been in the dishwasher for a full 24 hours needing to be unloaded, leaving the sink full of crusty plates from last nights dinner? We took a long walk, soaking in the last of spring's cool breezes, dreamily smiling at each other as we strolled through the park.
These are the things I will remember when my 4 month old is 14, not that the sheets and towels were many times long overdue for a change.
This is my beautiful, messy, brilliant life, and I love it. I won't hide it because there's no reason to.
But on the days when I feel like I am failing at having it all together, I will read the article below. Because it's a beautifully written reminder that I am, in fact, getting it all done, and doing a damn fine job.
http://www.amothershipdown.com/2015/03/20/to-the-moms-who-dont-feel-like-they-can-get-it-all-done/
http://www.amothershipdown.com/2015/03/20/to-the-moms-who-dont-feel-like-they-can-get-it-all-done/
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